Friday, September 12, 2014

The Quilt Holes.

Just a little Update to all of my Dear Friends on my health issues. First let me say I'm very sorry I haven't been around to visit ya'll lately. My health problems have got much, much worse and I will be seeing a Surgeon Monday on possibly having my Thyroid gland removed. The surgery is not in stone just yet but as far me, the decision has been made. This has been a long, hard journey and the mountains just keep getting more harder to climb. I've had Thyroid Disease (Hypothyroidism) for 22 years and it's now become Hashimoto's Disease. It's when something goes wrong with our immunine system and it attacks the Thyroid causing extreme inflammation and.all kinds of problems. It's amazing at how much that little gland controls our body and how much damage it can do when something happens to it. My days are basically spent laying around either burning up with heat, freezing to death, aches from my head to my toes, etc., etc. The list goes on and on but hopefully the surgeon will take pity sake on me and be willing to go ahead and remove it rather than wait till my body destroys it or worse turns to cancer and I Do Not want to even think about that.
But I want ya'll to know how much I appreciate each one of you and your friendship but most of all your prayers. I'll be back around to visit ya'll as soon as I'm able. I miss you and I'm praying for each one of you as well. God Bless, ~ Susie

As I faced my Maker at the last judgement,I knelt before the Lord along with all the other souls.
Before each of us laid our lives like the squares of a quilt in many piles: an angel sat before each of us sewing our quilt squares together into a tapestry that is our life.
But as my angel took each piece of cloth off the pile, I noticed how ragged and empty each of my squares was. They were filled with giant holes. Each square was labeled with a part of my life that had been difficult, the challenges and temptations I was faced with in everyday life. I saw hardships that I endured, which were the largest holes of all.
I glanced around me. Nobody else had such squares. Other than a tiny hole here and there, the other tapestries were filled with rich color and the bright hues of worldly fortune. I gazed upon my own life and was disheartened.
My angel was sewing the ragged pieces of cloth together, threadbare and empty, like binding air.
Finally the time came when each life was to be displayed, held up to the light, the scrutiny of truth. The others rose each in turn, holding up their tapestries. So filled their lives had been. My angel looked upon me and nodded for me to rise.
My gaze dropped to the ground in shame.I hadn't had all the earthly fortunes. I had love in my life and laughter, but there had also been trials of illness and wealth, and false accusations that took from me my world as I knew it. I had to start over many times.I often struggled with the temptation to quit, only to somehow muster the strength to pick up and begin again. I spent many nights on my knees in prayer, asking for help and guidance in my life. I had often been held up to ridicule, which I endured painfully, each time offering it up to the Father in hopes that I would melt within my skin beneath the judgemental gaze of those who unfairly judged me.
And now I had to face the truth. My life was what it was, and I had to accept it for what it was.
I rose and slowly lifted the combined squares of my life to the light.
An awe-filled gasp filled the air. I gazed around at the others who stared at me with wide eyes.
Then I looked upon the tapestry before me. Light flooded the many holes, creating an image, the face of Christ. Then our Lord stood before me, with warmth and love in his eyes. He said " Every time you gave over your life to Me, it became My life, My hardships, My struggles. Each point of light in your life is when you stepped aside and let me shine through, until there was more of me than there was of you".

May all our quilts be threadbare and worn, allowing Christ to shine through!

Author Unknown..


  1. Keeping you in my prayers, Susie. I hope the surgeon is able to help you. You have been through so much.
    I loved the quilt holes story--so beautiful.

  2. Oh dear, dear, Susie, this just breaks my heart. We try to understand why things like this happen to such a wonderful person, but believe God is in control. It's my prayer He will guide the surgeon in the decisions he makes for your care. God bless and much love to you. Charlotte

  3. I am so glad to have been able to keep up with you and your situation through Facebook. You have been in my prayers for a long time... I am so sorry for ALL that you have been through. BUT God knows how strong you are --and God knows that even though you have suffered so much, you have never given up your faith. You are an inspiration to me and others. God Bless YOU.

    Hugs and Prayers,

  4. My prayers are always with and for you, dear one.
    I suffered those extreme heat and chills and aches while going through chemo, so I know just how miserable that can be. I pray the surgeon will find a way to relieve you from that suffering...I will be checking in from time to time to see how you are doing, although I may not have internet after this month because of a financial change/challenge we are facing. I do not want you to worry about me though, as I am doing very very well...My focus is on you and your healing now. You are an inspiration to me always.
    I wrote a short story where I mentioned stains in the fabric of my life, being cleansed and made into a lovely quilt with the Lord's help...and I think I was inspired by that poem you shared today. I read it long ago.
    Your writings are inspirational too...and after you have gone through this and come out at the other end of it, you will be able to write about it in such a creative way!
    Blessings, healing, and much love to you, my friend~ Lisa

  5. Oh, my, Susie. I'm so sorry to hear you have gotten worse. I hope if you have surgery, everything will go well with you. You are in my prayers.

  6. Susie, You are in my prayers. I know you have struggled. I loved your post of the quilt. Blessings dear friend,xoxo,Susie